Relaxing, pain-free, drug-fuelled future.

I had a consultation with Pain Management at the local hospital today, overall, I’d say it went well.  The specialist nurse practitioner was excellent.  It was so good speaking to someone who understands.  This is the first time since diagnosis I have been able to talk to someone about my aches, pains, anxiety, depression and everything related to how I feel.  I admit I was very nervous beforehand, mainly because of previous experiences with healthcare providers which have not gone well.  Today my faith in the NHS was restored somewhat by this nurse specialist.  Unlike in other consultations she took time to listen and explain about the condition, took a detailed history and was able to discuss different treatment options, which surprisingly included acupuncture.  She also provided me with a tool-kit which offered hints and skills to help manage pain and details of a support programme they offer to connect with others in the same position.  The consultant consultation was not quite so positive, although I think I was feeling quite tired and emotionally drained by then, so this may not be a clear reflection of events.  Both chaps I met were very nice, but it felt a bit more like the business end of the experience, less chat and more about what they could offer.  I came away with a prescription for Pregabalin 25mg bd, I’ve been consented for a Lignocain infusion and some acupuncture sessions.  I admit that I came out feeling positive but also a bit concerned that the treatment revolved around  medication; I’m feeling generally conflicted about the use of medications to treat symptoms rather than trying to find a cause and then treat this.  I’m also aware that sometimes it may be worth putting your principle’s aside, even temporarily, in order to see the big picture.  Having struggled for sometime now with very little relief I’m wondering if reducing the pain and easing my anxiety may be more useful in the long run.  Whatever I decide I know the decision does not have to made today, I’ve got time to do some research.  I have some concerns regarding the drugs, I do not want something which causes too much weight gain; I’m already fat enough and struggling to walk adding more weight can only make things more difficult physically and mentally.  In addition, I don’t want anything that is too addictive, I want to know I can come off them without too much difficulty.  My main concern however, is I want to know they work, some minor side effects may be worth putting up with if the damn things work.

Anyone out in blog-land who happens to read this and has some experience of Pregabalin, Lignocain infusions or acupuncture I would really welcome your advices or feedback.

Unfortunately, I’m now feeling quite drained after such an eventful day so I’m off for an early night and dream about my relaxing, pain-free drug-fuelled future.